weird people and weird things

 i think my perception of weird must be totally off

well

it's more like yeah, i do have the social awareness to know whats typically out of the norm

but my thing is

people make exceptions now

other weird people are judging those for being "weirder". like anime fans judging anime fans, or selfshippers judging other self shippers, or gay people judging trans people or weirder gay people or kink infighting or fandom discourse

we are all weird to normies

why are we trying to outweird eachother? what does "weird" even mean? what is it? what is anything?!

as a kid, i think a lot of things i did and liked are considered very, very WEIRD! and i haven't changed at all. i guess that might be seen as "bad", but that's another concept that i don't understand. it's less that i don't get it and more like...i just don't care. i really don't care about social norms or fitting in...but i guesss i kinda do too due to the fact i limit myself. it's becuz im scared. its not rlly for ego purposes but im scared of being outcasted more than i already am...online no less...we are all fuckin losers, why alienate people unless theyre like really really mean and bullies and refuse to get better or are like..racist or something?! and even then, i dont think anyone deserves to be isolated like that. 

while in the middle of typing this it seems my thinkpad decided to crap out snd freeze. so glad that blogger saved what i was writing (thanks Google...) that sorta ruined my thoughts tho so i dont feel like writing the rest of this. yadda yadda everyone lacks empathy i hate online spaces and i feel extremely out of place online irl everywhere and i want to kill myself, especially seeing weird people like selfshipers tell "weirdos" to die and go away. what posers. they all probably are insecure and hate themselves deep down, so they need someone to hate on instead to make them feel better about themself.

people like that are really on my shitlist...